Friday, October 31, 2008


we often have to choose in life
from what type of food should we eat
what product should we use
where is the best place to study
which hospital serves the best treatment
and even what clothes should we wear

all the choices that we make depends on the situation
the choices might change our life
it may brings us happiness or even disaster
we might be grateful with our choice or regret it

but once the choice has been made
you can't turn back time
your regret won't change anything
life must go on
that is why we have to choose wisely
follow your heart
follow your instinct
and just wish that the choice you make is the right one

what can love spare us ?
it often brings us happiness
but with that, there are also sorrow, tears and sadness
choices in love are one of the hardest choice to make
whom ever we choose, one heart will got broken
some might not bear seeing the person that they love being broken hearted
but that is the reality
we can't just leave them waiting and hoping
at the end of the day, we have to choose only ONE
such a DILEMMA

why do we have to choose ?
why can't we have both ?
it's human nature to feel such feelings
making choices is not the best thing to do
it is hard to make a choice when you have great things to choose from
what a life huhh ?
how hard making choices is, still we have to CHOOSE

Thursday, October 30, 2008

still loving you

i met you at school today
i asked you how you feel towards me
you didn't answer me at first
so i kept asking you the same question
you stared deeply into my eyes
i can't stand it when you stared at me
so i looked down
i asked you the question again
then you said, the stared is the answer
i pretend that i don't understand it
cause i don't want to make any assumption
still you don't give me the answer
i told you that i have to make a decision
i have to choose between you and him
you said that it's my life, not yours
you are okeyh with who ever i choose
i said how can i make my decision
when i don't really know how you feel towards me
then you said " I STILL LOVE YOU "
i'm totally speechless
i can still remember your expression when you said it
i can see your sincerity in you eyes
owh, what a life
you gave me the answer that i hope for
but, with that answer
it makes it harder for me to choose
i HATE being in dilemma
*date happened: 30.10.08

love affair

the first time we met
we just smiled at each other
then we became friends
you are really good to me
you are funny and cute
but you are 2 years younger than me
but it's okeyh
age is just a number right ?
then i add you on myspace
suddenly, one day
you asked me to be your girlfriend
i didn't give you my answer at that time
after a few days later
i met you at school and i said YES !
you smiled and we became more than friends
everything went really great
we even went out together
you treat me very well
you really know how to treat a girl

but then, one day
things got worst
i got back with my ex
we were just friends at first
but it seems like we can't forget each other
we can't let go of each other
then he broke up with his girlfriend
i don't know what to do
it has been a long time since you contacted me
you rarely text me and you never call me
than, i make a decision to break up with you
at first, you don't want to let me go
but, i said my decision is final
i'm sorry for doing this to you

now, i'm getting back with my ex
you and him are in one team which is nasyid
he said that you and him doesn't talk much anymore
then, he asked me to accept you back
he said that you really really love me
many people said you do
but still, i don't know what to do

at first, breaking up with you seems like the right thing to do
now, i'm not really sure anymore
people said that you are really sad
that you really can't let me go
but i just don't know what to do
i feel guilty
he kept asking me to accept you
he even asked me if i felt guilty by breaking up with you
and i said i YES
then he said that if i felt guilty, i must have loved you
i guess he was right
or is he ?
i don't really know
but i've made my decision
i chose him over you
i'm really sorry sayang
now, i feel really sad, guilty and wrong about my decision

does that mean that i love you ?
i don't know.

i can't bear seeing him with other girl
but at the same time, i feel like i want you
why can't i just have both ?
why do i have to choose ?
sometimes i kept thinking
what would it be like if i chose you instead ?
guess i will never know
now i kept thinking about you
i'm sorry for breaking your heart
i feel like i MISS you
miss you so much
but' i'm not really sure about it
you seems like you are trying to avoid me
hope you don't
really hope we can be friends
i'm really sorry for doing this to you
seriously, i don't really know what i feel right now
i feel guilty
does that mean that i love you ?
i miss you
does that mean that i love you ?
i kept remembering our memories
does that mean that i love you ?

p/s ; i know some of you might think that i'm bad. but, you just don't know how the real situation is. this is just a summary. it might take a long time to for me to explain it to you the real thing. everybody has their own opinion including you. so typical of you to judge me by what i wrote.


hey guys.
im actually new in blogging.
i've always wanted to blog.
but, kinda lazy to do it.
now i actually have time to blog.
so, here is my blog.

p/s; sorry for the grammar mistakes or anything. im not that good and perfect. im just an ordinary human who makes mistakes.