Choices

we often have to choose in life

from what type of food should we eat

what product should we use

where is the best place to study

which hospital serves the best treatment

and even what clothes should we wear

all the choices that we make depends on the situation

the choices might change our life

it may brings us happiness or even disaster

we might be grateful with our choice or regret it

but once the choice has been made

you can't turn back time

your regret won't change anything

life must go on

that is why we have to choose wisely

follow your heart

follow your instinct

and just wish that the choice you make is the right one

LOVE

what can love spare us ?

it often brings us happiness

but with that, there are also sorrow, tears and sadness

choices in love are one of the hardest choice to make

whom ever we choose, one heart will got broken

some might not bear seeing the person that they love being broken hearted

but that is the reality

we can't just leave them waiting and hoping

at the end of the day, we have to choose only ONE

such a DILEMMA

why do we have to choose ?

why can't we have both ?

it's human nature to feel such feelings

making choices is not the best thing to do

it is hard to make a choice when you have great things to choose from

what a life huhh ?

how hard making choices is, still we have to CHOOSE

still loving you

i met you at school today

i asked you how you feel towards me

you didn't answer me at first

so i kept asking you the same question

you stared deeply into my eyes

GOD

i can't stand it when you stared at me

so i looked down

i asked you the question again

then you said, the stared is the answer

i pretend that i don't understand it

cause i don't want to make any assumption

still you don't give me the answer

i told you that i have to make a decision

i have to choose between you and him

you said that it's my life, not yours

you are okeyh with who ever i choose

i said how can i make my decision

when i don't really know how you feel towards me

*silence*

then you said " I STILL LOVE YOU "

i'm totally speechless

i can still remember your expression when you said it

i can see your sincerity in you eyes

owh, what a life

you gave me the answer that i hope for

but, with that answer

it makes it harder for me to choose

*sigh*

i HATE being in dilemma

*date happened: 30.10.08

love affair

the first time we met
we just smiled at each other
then we became friends
you are really good to me
you are funny and cute
but you are 2 years younger than me
but it's okeyh
age is just a number right ?
then i add you on myspace
suddenly, one day
you asked me to be your girlfriend
i didn't give you my answer at that time
after a few days later
i met you at school and i said YES !
you smiled and we became more than friends
everything went really great
we even went out together
you treat me very well
you really know how to treat a girl


but then, one day
things got worst
i got back with my ex
we were just friends at first
but it seems like we can't forget each other
we can't let go of each other
then he broke up with his girlfriend
i don't know what to do
it has been a long time since you contacted me
you rarely text me and you never call me
than, i make a decision to break up with you
at first, you don't want to let me go
but, i said my decision is final
i'm sorry for doing this to you


now, i'm getting back with my ex
you and him are in one team which is nasyid
he said that you and him doesn't talk much anymore
then, he asked me to accept you back
he said that you really really love me
many people said you do
but still, i don't know what to do


at first, breaking up with you seems like the right thing to do
now, i'm not really sure anymore
people said that you are really sad
that you really can't let me go
but i just don't know what to do
i feel guilty
he kept asking me to accept you
he even asked me if i felt guilty by breaking up with you
and i said i YES
then he said that if i felt guilty, i must have loved you
i guess he was right
or is he ?
i don't really know
but i've made my decision
i chose him over you
i'm really sorry sayang
now, i feel really sad, guilty and wrong about my decision
does that mean that i love you ?
i don't know.


i can't bear seeing him with other girl
but at the same time, i feel like i want you
why can't i just have both ?
why do i have to choose ?
sometimes i kept thinking
what would it be like if i chose you instead ?
guess i will never know
now i kept thinking about you
i'm sorry for breaking your heart
i feel like i MISS you
miss you so much
but' i'm not really sure about it
you seems like you are trying to avoid me
hope you don't
really hope we can be friends
i'm really sorry for doing this to you
seriously, i don't really know what i feel right now
i feel guilty
does that mean that i love you ?
i miss you
does that mean that i love you ?
i kept remembering our memories
does that mean that i love you ?
I DON'T REALLY KNOW

p/s ; i know some of you might think that i'm bad. but, you just don't know how the real situation is. this is just a summary. it might take a long time to for me to explain it to you the real thing. everybody has their own opinion including you. so typical of you to judge me by what i wrote.

intro

hey guys.
im actually new in blogging.
i've always wanted to blog.
but, kinda lazy to do it.
now i actually have time to blog.
so, here is my blog.




p/s; sorry for the grammar mistakes or anything. im not that good and perfect. im just an ordinary human who makes mistakes.