T.T

you know what
it is true when people said that you won't know what u really love until you have lost it.
thus, treasure and appreciate everything that u have and the people that you love.


i have always wonder how long this relationship will last.
i have always wanted a long lasting relationship.
coz you know what, i really love you sayangg.


so please, don't leave now.
please don't leave me when i really need you.


if it is stated that u are not for me, than I'll accept it.
but, please. not now.
just not now. I'm just not ready to lose you.


iloveyousyafuanmohamedsam

Aku

adalah aku.


dan aku mmg bukan kaw.
jadi jgn compare bolehh ?



TERIMA KASIH ;)

kau apehal pukimak ? aku tak kacau kau, yang kau nak kacau aku kenapa ? pegi mampus lahh aku nak buat ape pown. aku tak menyibuk sikit pown lahh dengan hal kau. duit dengan taik kau pown aku tak sentuh. jadi, tolong jangan nak kacau aku lagi okeyh ?! dan tolong lahh berhenti stalk aku !


*i'm so not in the mood right now. mind my choices of words. i've been patient for TOO long now.

Finally

baru terasa mcm nk tulis pasal US.
HAHA ;D


yes, i do kinda have that jealousy feeling when i read people's blog when they wrote bout their loved ones. hehe ^-^


so, this is how the story goes ;

last thursday (8/4), ktorg pegi ampang park sbb dye nk dinner kat situ. so, he texted me asking whether or not i nk ikot or tak. i was like, okeyh lar. why not tmnkn dye dinner kn. so after dinner, dye ajk jalan2 around KL. i pown okeyh jew lahh. then jalan kaki from ampang park to KLCC. lepak jpp kat taman KLCC then i ajk dye blk.


cut the story short, time dahh sampai ampang park tuhh, my slipper boleh putus plakk. i was like wth (?!). malu gyler kowt dgn dye T.T but thank God time tuhh kat dpn ktorg juz ade 1 couple nie jew. so tak lahh malu sgtt. nk beli slipper baru, kedai sume dahh tutup. thank God time tuhh dahh mlm, kedai sume dahh tutup n dahh tak ramai orang. so, kena lahh tebalkan muka and buat muka tak malu, pegang slipper tuhh and jalan kaki ayam. dahh macam jalan kat tepi pantai dahh. sumpah malu gyler ngn dye T.T


hananinot, u know how i felt that time kan sygg kan ? hehe

the best part bout the most humiliating incident was the time nk pegi kat kereta tuhh, he gave me a piggy-back ride. awwww. thank u sygg ^___^ kesian u kn ? dahh lahh i berat =.="


p/s ;

ini muka merajuk saya masa saya merajuk dgn dia.
hehe ^-^

Award.

yeay ! I've won an award from my gay partner hananinot. thank u sayangg !! ^-^

so here are a few rules that u gotta do if u win this award. HAHA

1.Thank and link the person that give you the award (done)
2.Pass this award to 15 bloggers you've recently discovered (10 is enough, i think)
3.Contact said Blogs and let them know they've won the award (not done.haha ;P)
4.State seven things about yourself (done)



1. Lala
2. Fyna
3. Teefa
4. Jime
5. Aten
6. Aina
7. Adam
8. You
9. You
10. You


so, here are 7 things about me ;

i. i dislike cats so bad. i don't know why
ii. I'm afraid of heights
iii. I'm not the good girl type that people thought i am
iv. I'm pretty much obsess in getting a great body figure
v. i wanna loose weight so bad
vi. i am paranoid about my body. i always have this thought that i am F.A.T
vii. i am so in love right now. HAHA ;D

Come and Go

this entry is dedicated to the guys who had come into my life, brightens up my day and then..
poof ! they disappear. not really disappear. it's just that time goes by, people change, and bla bla bla.. you know what i mean.


so here it goes.


#1
he has been the love of my life for almost about 3 years. at that time, i thought that i couldn't live without him. you know how it feels when you thought that you are so in love and you have the kind of feelings that he is the one for you. how lame is that ? HAHA. but, it is so rare(?) that high school love last long. but i do know that it's not impossible. so here, i wanna thank him for everything that he had done for me. thanks for all the gifts and the love. HAHA ;D


#2
he is 2 years younger than me. we've been together for quite a while. he is the most honest and nicest guy i have ever known. seriously ! u can see his honesty and sincerity in his eyes. and when you talk to him, and look into his eyes, he can make your heart pound so fast. you can go speechless. his stares can make your heart melt. HAHA. to him, you know who you are. i just wanna say thank u so much for everything. you really know how to treat a girl. and i really appreciate everything that u had done for me. i know i have disappointed you in anyway. and for that, i am so sorry.


#3
he has been my best friend during my high school year. he had change my life a lot. i don't know why, but somehow he is the only one so far that can really change me. i mean, change my attitude and stuff. he is the one that can lead me through the right path. you know what i mean ? but, i don't know what went wrong. things are not the same anymore now. i just wanted to say thank you so much for being a good friend to me. he really understands me well. he is the place where i used to share my problems with. and he is also the place where i seek for advice. so, thanks again.


#4
what can i wrote about this guy ? okeyh. he is 1 year younger than me. he is such a sweet talker. and he is really good with words. sweet words to be exact. HAHA. his attitude is just like #1. seriously ! he is like the junior version of #1. and that is so not a good thing. HAHA. what ever it is, thank u so much for all the sweet talk and all the sweet things that you have done for me. thank u so much for treating me nicely and making me feel like a princess for once. HAHA. and I'm so sorry but i just don't see us being more than a friend. sorry !


#5
he was my classmate since i'm 16. he had given me a lot of stuff to prove it to me that he really likes me. i know that you are such a nice guy. but again, i don't really see us as a couple. i am so sorry !! I've tried giving you back all the gifts that you gave me. but you insist me of keeping it. so, here i wanna say thank u for the teddy bear, books, shawl, pencil case, heart-shaped pillow, and all the souvenir from all over the world. i really really appreciate it. THANK YOU !




all of the guys i have mentioned above had come and go from my life. what i share with you here are just some of the things that they had done for me. i really appreciate having them as a part of my life. even just for a short time. but, i do hope that we can still remain as a friend.


it's true when people say that friends come and go.


i really hope that the friends i have now and my rwksta buddies will remain as my friends till my life ends ;)

Dia

teringin nk tulis pasal aku dan dia.


tapi...


takpelah. mungkin lain kali.
atau mungkin tidak.

Update

woah. it feels like it has been forever since i last updated my blog.

it's not that i didn't have anything to write
it's just that there are so many things to talk about and i don't really know where to start.
HAHA

i really feel like writing some of my thoughts and stories here.
but, i don't find it safe (?) anymore to write things here in my blog.

there are so many judgments.


since a lot had happen, there is still one thing that lingering on my mind

hmmm.
how should i put it ?

okeyh.
would u help your family as in big family when you're having quite an easy life ?

i mean not all of your family members is fortunate like you do right ?
so would u help them ?

i know some of you might say yes.
but, how far would you help them ?
you might just said it to look good.


you know,
as i grow up
these sort of things come through my mind a lot
i became so close to reality.


it makes me realize that not all people including your big family are there to help u.
some of them are just too selfish.
but, you can always rely on your small family.