GlimpseOfMyLife

Tercipta Untukku.

2011-08-22T23:33:00.003+08:00

this song is dedicated specially to you sayang :')

Accident Does Happen

2011-06-27T19:42:00.002+08:00

there has been an accident today.

i was shocked to see that this girl is covered with blood.

there are blood all over her tshirt and kain baju kurung.

i just got back from cafe with my roomates after having our dinner.

it was around 6 p.m.

as we were heading to our room, there are this crowd of people.

we were quite curious about what had happened.

we started to ask around.

that is when we saw the girl.

she was holding a small towel on her head.

i was shocked to see that there were so many blood.

i thought that she could have fall in the toilet or something.

but, you know what exactly happened to her ?

her head got hit with a fan.

spinning fan to be exact.

i'm not really sure how it happened.

but i guess maybe she was standing on the bed or something.

people were busy calling here and there.

one of them even called our fellow to inform about the accident.

but too bad, he was in Terengganu.

my friend offer her helped to bring this girl to the Health Unit.

but, one of them already called the ambulance.

and guess what ?

it took sooooooo long for the ambulance to finally arrived.

we were like, what the HELL.

why does it took so long ?

if that person was heavily bleeding, she could die you know.

why is that driver so effing stupid ?

but, Alhamdulillah she was fine.

she received five stitches on the head.

hope that she will get better soon.

That Feeling Again.

2011-06-23T13:35:00.002+08:00

I'm having that feeling again.

The feeling of lost, empty and fragile.

I don't know why, but somehow i feel lost.

I wonder what I'm doing here.

Why must it be here ?

Why can't I be somewhere else ?

I don't feel like i belong here.

This emptiness should be filled.

Fill with love, joy and laughter.

I laugh. I cry.

But still, deep down inside i feel empty.

i need my enthusiasm back !

fragile.

I don't why, but it seems like I'm super sensitive lately.

everything seems to go wrong.

or maybe it is just me.

*sigh

I miss everybody.

I miss my mom, my family and him.

i miss my rawksta buddies and my school friends.

I miss school year and I miss hanging out.

Alhamdulillah :)

2011-05-27T15:59:00.001+08:00

syukur to Allah i can still maintain my pointer. Alhamdulillah sangat2 ^-^

Hmm

2011-03-30T09:42:00.003+08:00

kalau kaw rasa kaw dahh cukup pandai and dahh taw segala-galanya,

tak payah lar nak tanye aku macam2.

then nk cakap macam2 belakang aku.

kau ingat kaw sape ?!

FUCK lar weyh !

kalau kaw rasa kaw dahh cukup bagus, then TAK PAYAH okeyh,

aku repeat TAK PAYAH okeyh nk tanye aku ape2 lagi okeyh !

tak payah aku susah2 nk jawab soalan kaw dengan jawapan BODOH aku tuhh kan !

haihh.

This Is So Cool !

2011-03-28T15:32:00.002+08:00

check this video out. this is about me in the future. InsyaAllah. hehe :D

www.this-is-my-story.com/v/868UC23I57GI

p/s ; i got to know about this video through an acquaintance of mine :)

Aku Rindu Setengah Mati,

2011-03-14T22:02:00.004+08:00

frankly speaking, i really miss you
it's a lie if i said that i didn't miss you
who doesn't miss the person that they love isn't it.

but to tell you the truth,
i miss the old you
i miss the old us.

i miss your sweet words
i miss you who is so loving
you who is so caring
and you who will comfort me when i'm down

i miss you who is always there when i fall
who will help me when i'm down
and who will always cheer me up when i'm sad.

I REALLY REALLY MISS THE OLD YOU !

Penat. Sangat Penat.

2011-03-14T21:15:00.003+08:00

kadang-kadang hati ini rasa ingin teriak sekuat hati
supaya semua orang tahu
apa yang aku rasa, apa yang terpendam, apa yang terbuku

kadang-kadang aku rasa penat
lelah untuk hadap semua hari-hari
lemah untuk tempuh semua seorang diri

aku hampir berputus asa
aku hampir tinggalkan semua
tapi aku waras lagi
aku masih sayang dan cinta

penat memang penat
letih memang letih
untuk tempuh benda yang sama hari-hari
buat aku jemu dan lali

sudah, cukup, berhenti !
biarkan aku sendiri
kalau memang susah untuk kau betul-betul mengerti
nyah kau berlalu dan pergi

p/s ; mentally tired.

Dance With My Father

2011-01-20T14:49:00.004+08:00

Today in Bel260 class, our lecturer makes us listen to this old sentimental song called Dance With My Father by Luther Vandross. While others were chit chatting with each other, I suddenly thought of my father.

I almost shed a tear when I hear that song and listen carefully to the lyrics. i really really miss you dad. :(

to those out there who still have your parents by your side, do love them with all your heart. and never ever break their hearts.

Him,

2010-12-28T20:53:00.002+08:00

The Hardwork Paid Off

2010-12-10T19:22:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah. i got the Dean's List for my finals :) i really hope to keep this up throughout the upcoming semesters. insyaAllah, aminn.

i guess all my hardwork does pay off very well. thanks to Allah :)

p/s ; makkk. saya dapat empat rata. heee =D

Updating #2

2010-11-06T18:07:00.003+08:00

poor blog. i've been neglecting it for quite some times. i'm so sorry. i just don't know what to write. moreover, i'm in my examination week now. so, there are not much time for me to squeeze in and write my blog. all i got is the time to study, study, study.

i'm glad that there will only be one paper left, which is management. it is my last paper which will be on the 11th of november. and then, home sweet home for me. hehe. i can't wait to go home. i really2 miss my family. currently missing my sister much. hahaha. so weird of me to confess that. ahha :P

hmm, i don't know what else to write. i guess that is all for now.

7-10 Oct 2010

2010-10-09T01:11:00.002+08:00

the happiest four days of year 2010.

i love you so much sayangg ;)

Sept 16, 2010

2010-09-22T21:00:00.005+08:00

was the happiest day of my life.
Let the pictures tell it all.

he totally surprised me that day.
THANK YOU SO MUCH MY LOVE ^__^

Location : Starbucks, Bukit Bintang
Time : 19:59

this picture is a lil bit shaky
as i am so nervous, excited, happy, surprised and speechless.
heeee ^____^

at pavilion while waiting for the movie
muka sangat happy and bahagia. haha :D
mata dia memang allergic dgn flash -_-"

i love this picture ;)

in the cinema
watching step up 3 3D
the movie was EPIC ! =)

THE box ;D

THANK YOU A MILLION TIMES SAYANG !!
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MY LOVE ^3^

Eid 2010

2010-09-13T02:07:00.005+08:00

Happy Eid al-Fitr people.
hope you guys would forgive me for all my wrong doings or bad words.

like any other family, Hari Raya is the day for us to get together and seek for forgiveness. so, here are some of the pictures during 1st Hari Raya.

siblings ;)

i love you mama =)
xoxo

happy eid people :D

muka macam budak2. HAHA
tak kesah lahh. i still love you sayangg ;)
kesian u takk cukup tido during first hari raya.

his leg, my head.
i love being a little immature when i'm with him ;P

so that night, we decided to go and watch the movies. moreover, it has been quite a long time since we both spend some quality time together. owh how much i missed him when i was in kelantan. tsk T.T

on our way to pavilion. muka sangat gembira ;D

i love my prince ^___^

he is my other half ^3^

thank you sayang for the precious moments. ly !

Updating

2010-08-27T18:04:00.001+08:00

wow ! it has been ages since i last updated my blog.
currently been busy with tests that i got before raya.
haihh.

now i'm glad that management test and accounting test are finally over.
hehe

i can't wait for Hari Raya !
heeeee ^_______________^

Why

2010-08-03T01:32:00.005+08:00

why do i kept bumping with a person like you ?
with the same exact attitude like you do ?
haihh -_-'

_____________________________

to you my past ;

THANK YOU so much for that MOUNTAIN HIGH HOPES
THANK YOU so much for existing in my life
THANK YOU so much for that sweet words

if only i could turn back time, i wish that i don't even met you and knew you.

now, i regret ever knowing you. FULLSTOP !

Sometimes ;

2010-07-31T00:00:00.000+08:00

i regret ever knowing you.

but..
sometimes i don't.

Self Expression

2010-07-29T12:32:00.002+08:00

I just knew something today that makes my day all gloomy and moody.
haihh. All thanks to you PEREMPUAN !

i've never, i repeat, NEVER said anything bad about you.

yang kau perasan sangat kenapa perempuan ?
kau bajet kau HOT sgt ke utk aku cakap2 pasal kau ?
kau fikir aku takde kerja lain ?
byk lagi lahh assignment aku yang aku nak kena buat.

SUMPAH buang masa gila babi untuk aku layan perempuan macam kau !

aku tahu kau kaya.
aku tahu kau cantik.
aku tahu aku bukan sape2 berbanding ngan kau.

TAPI, tolonglahh ye perempuan.
aku TAK cakap apa2 pon lahh pasal kau.
kau jangan nak PERASAN sangat boleh takk ?!

Campus Life

2010-07-22T00:38:00.003+08:00

it feels so great to be back. hehehe :)

life here in UiTM Machang, Kelantan was not so bad after all.
i've got a couple of cool and nice friends.
but of course u can't compared them to my rawksta buddies ^-^

i also lost 5kg since i got here.
woohoo ! what an acomplishment. hehe ;D
thanks to those mountain-high stairs. haihh

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okeyh. skrg sesi luahan hati pula ;

tak sampai sebulan kat sini, aku dahh maki org.
haihh. but, secara dalaman of course -_-"

kpd kau ;
perlu ke kau pandang aku mcm tuhh hoii ?
salah ke kalau aku rapat dengan dia ?
kenapa ? kau jealous ? kau suka dia ke ?
kau fikir aku bodoh sgt ke ?
kau pk aku tak tau yg kau ckp blkg psl aku ?
haihh. LANTAK kau lahh weyh !

kpd kau pula ;
perlu ke kau jadi penyampai yg tak berbayar ?
mulut kau mmg mcm palat eyh ?
kalau kau JANGAN nk sibuk pasal aku bolehh takk ?
tak paham lahh aku. haihh.

Today Was A Fairytale

2010-05-14T15:24:00.008+08:00

Today was a fairytale
You were the prince
I used to be a damsel in distress
You took me by the hand and you picked me up at six
Today was a fairytale

i am so in love with that song ;]

anyway, yesterday (13th May) we went shopping to buy some stuff for me since I'm going to UiTM soon. i love shopping with him. he really knows how to give me some fashion advices. hehe
so, we decided to go to BB to buy some clothes.

before that, we decided to have our lunch first. since it has been forever since we last met (haha. it has only been almost 2 weeks actually. i love exaggerating ^^ ) , we decided to go and have our lunch at some fancy restaurant. HAHA. so we walked to Chili's in KLCC from BB since he already parked the car in BB.

then suddenly while we were enjoying our lunch, the rain started falling. we were like, oh great ! how are we suppose to go back to BB ? *sigh so, we decided to chill a lil bit longer there. at least till the rain stops. but, too bad. it started to rain heavily. so, we went window shopping in KLCC for a while until i decided that we should go back to BB.

i wanted to buy an umbrella. but, he said that it would be such a waste. and i was like, wtv. okeyh then. he decided that we just walked through the rain. really good idea sayang -_-' he gave me his cap and we walked and run through the rain. thank god that it does not rain heavily.

imagine me in my heels running through the rain. =_________=" my feet was aching. seriously. and we were soaking wet. but it was really a fun and so-called-romantic experience. HAHA ;D

we do manage to reach BB. but of course we were WET and COLD. so we shop with that condition and then went back home. so, here are some picture of us. enjoy ;)

at chili's while waiting for our food.

ehem. hensem lahh tuhh ? :P

he ate chicken spaghetti and i ate swiss-mushroom burger.
delicious ;)
owh, and that is the other half of my burger which i can't finish.
i only manage to finish half of it as always. heee ^__^

happy faces with full stomach ;]
mata yang tak cukup tidur and senyum yang tak ikhlas.

yup. we do love making faces ^^

this is when we were on our way home.
we were stuck in a traffic jam and we were still wet when this picture is taken.

THANK YOU FOR READING DEAR READERS ^-^

2010-05-03T20:55:00.004+08:00

i look terrible. huhh. who cares anyway.
i've been locking myself up in my room for two days already.

ade tersalah lirik part dahh nk habis tuhh. hehe.
maklum lahh baru jew blaja main lagu nie smlm.
tuhh pown because of him. hmm

Macam ....

2010-05-02T03:00:00.005+08:00

i have been keeping this for too long now. way too long. and it seems like the more i kept quiet, the more u try too control me. for goodness sake, u are not my mother !!

i know i am way too young compared to you. but, kaw sape nk tentukan arah hidup aku ? kaw spe nk tentukan mase depan aku ? kaw sape nk tentukan dengan sape aku perlu berkawan, dengan sape aku perlu bersama, course ape aku perlu ambik.

aku dahh bosan lahh dengan sikap bossy kaw tuhh ! sume org pown kena dgr ckp kaw. kalau takk, org tuhh kaw kate bodoh ! memang kaw lahh yang paling pandai kat dalam dunia nie. memang kaw sorg jew lahh yg betol. ape yang kaw ckp sume org kena dengar kan ?

puas dahh hati kaw sekarang ? puas dahh kaw hancurkan kebahagiaan aku ? puas dahh kaw tengok aku sedih ? PUAS TAKK ?!! kalau takk puas, fikir lahh rancangan lain. biar sampai kaw puas ! kaw nk aku hormat kaw. tapi kaw takk reti nak hormat orang lain. walaupun dengan orang yang lagi tua dari kaw. even dengan makk kaw sendiri.

tolong lahh weyh. aku BUKAN anak kaw. jadi tolong lahh jangan cuba nak control hidup aku ! tolong lahh jangan buatkan pilihan untuk aku. sebab pilihan yang kaw buat tuhh tak semestinya aku suka. cukuplahh kaw jaga jew anak kaw tuhh. anak kaw tuhh dahh kawen pown kn ? jadi tapayah lahh nak kacau hidup aku !

sbb mulut kaw yang mcm longkang tuhh, ktorang jadi macam nie kaw taw takk ? ktorg mungkin dahh tak dapat nk bersama lagi. semua sbb kaw ! KAW KAW KAW ! aku rasa macam dahh malas and menyampahh nak tengok muka kaw. kaw tahu takk ?

kaw memang takk boleh nak tengok ktorg bahagia kan ? yang kaw nk dengki sangat ngn ktorg nie kenapa ? tak faham lahh aku ! ktorg takk kacau hidup kaw pown lahh ! ktorg takk sentuh pown duit dan taik kaw. kaw jage jew lahh anak2 kaw tuhh. tak perlu sibuk2 nk jage anak org lain !

lepas nie mesti kaw suka kan kalau ktorg dahh takde papew. mesty kaw melonjak-lonjak gembira sebab kaw dahh berjaya pisahkan ktorg. TAHNIAH lahh untuk kaw ! kaw memang nak sangat ktorg berpisahh kan ?! terima kasih sebab buat aku sedih dan menangis tersedu-sedu. terima kasih sebab buat aku menagis sampai aku tak boleh bernafas dan semput. TERIMA KASIH !!

you. i swear to God i seriously truly love you with all my heart !! ='(

T.T

2010-04-28T23:54:00.003+08:00

you know what
it is true when people said that you won't know what u really love until you have lost it.
thus, treasure and appreciate everything that u have and the people that you love.

i have always wonder how long this relationship will last.
i have always wanted a long lasting relationship.
coz you know what, i really love you sayangg.

so please, don't leave now.
please don't leave me when i really need you.

if it is stated that u are not for me, than I'll accept it.
but, please. not now.
just not now. I'm just not ready to lose you.

iloveyousyafuanmohamedsam

Aku

2010-04-24T14:17:00.001+08:00

adalah aku.

dan aku mmg bukan kaw.
jadi jgn compare bolehh ?

TERIMA KASIH ;)

2010-04-16T00:48:00.003+08:00

kau apehal pukimak ? aku tak kacau kau, yang kau nak kacau aku kenapa ? pegi mampus lahh aku nak buat ape pown. aku tak menyibuk sikit pown lahh dengan hal kau. duit dengan taik kau pown aku tak sentuh. jadi, tolong jangan nak kacau aku lagi okeyh ?! dan tolong lahh berhenti stalk aku !

*i'm so not in the mood right now. mind my choices of words. i've been patient for TOO long now.

Finally

2010-04-10T15:28:00.006+08:00

baru terasa mcm nk tulis pasal US.
HAHA ;D

yes, i do kinda have that jealousy feeling when i read people's blog when they wrote bout their loved ones. hehe ^-^

so, this is how the story goes ;

last thursday (8/4), ktorg pegi ampang park sbb dye nk dinner kat situ. so, he texted me asking whether or not i nk ikot or tak. i was like, okeyh lar. why not tmnkn dye dinner kn. so after dinner, dye ajk jalan2 around KL. i pown okeyh jew lahh. then jalan kaki from ampang park to KLCC. lepak jpp kat taman KLCC then i ajk dye blk.

cut the story short, time dahh sampai ampang park tuhh, my slipper boleh putus plakk. i was like wth (?!). malu gyler kowt dgn dye T.T but thank God time tuhh kat dpn ktorg juz ade 1 couple nie jew. so tak lahh malu sgtt. nk beli slipper baru, kedai sume dahh tutup. thank God time tuhh dahh mlm, kedai sume dahh tutup n dahh tak ramai orang. so, kena lahh tebalkan muka and buat muka tak malu, pegang slipper tuhh and jalan kaki ayam. dahh macam jalan kat tepi pantai dahh. sumpah malu gyler ngn dye T.T

hananinot, u know how i felt that time kan sygg kan ? hehe

the best part bout the most humiliating incident was the time nk pegi kat kereta tuhh, he gave me a piggy-back ride. awwww. thank u sygg ^___^ kesian u kn ? dahh lahh i berat =.="

p/s ;

ini muka merajuk saya masa saya merajuk dgn dia.
hehe ^-^

Award.

2010-04-09T20:10:00.005+08:00

yeay ! I've won an award from my gay partner hananinot. thank u sayangg !! ^-^

so here are a few rules that u gotta do if u win this award. HAHA

1.Thank and link the person that give you the award (done)
2.Pass this award to 15 bloggers you've recently discovered (10 is enough, i think)
3.Contact said Blogs and let them know they've won the award (not done.haha ;P)
4.State seven things about yourself (done)

1. Lala
2. Fyna
3. Teefa
4. Jime
5. Aten
6. Aina
7. Adam
8. You
9. You
10. You

so, here are 7 things about me ;

i. i dislike cats so bad. i don't know why
ii. I'm afraid of heights
iii. I'm not the good girl type that people thought i am
iv. I'm pretty much obsess in getting a great body figure
v. i wanna loose weight so bad
vi. i am paranoid about my body. i always have this thought that i am F.A.T
vii. i am so in love right now. HAHA ;D

Come and Go

2010-04-08T16:42:00.005+08:00

this entry is dedicated to the guys who had come into my life, brightens up my day and then..
poof ! they disappear. not really disappear. it's just that time goes by, people change, and bla bla bla.. you know what i mean.

so here it goes.

#1
he has been the love of my life for almost about 3 years. at that time, i thought that i couldn't live without him. you know how it feels when you thought that you are so in love and you have the kind of feelings that he is the one for you. how lame is that ? HAHA. but, it is so rare(?) that high school love last long. but i do know that it's not impossible. so here, i wanna thank him for everything that he had done for me. thanks for all the gifts and the love. HAHA ;D

#2
he is 2 years younger than me. we've been together for quite a while. he is the most honest and nicest guy i have ever known. seriously ! u can see his honesty and sincerity in his eyes. and when you talk to him, and look into his eyes, he can make your heart pound so fast. you can go speechless. his stares can make your heart melt. HAHA. to him, you know who you are. i just wanna say thank u so much for everything. you really know how to treat a girl. and i really appreciate everything that u had done for me. i know i have disappointed you in anyway. and for that, i am so sorry.

#3
he has been my best friend during my high school year. he had change my life a lot. i don't know why, but somehow he is the only one so far that can really change me. i mean, change my attitude and stuff. he is the one that can lead me through the right path. you know what i mean ? but, i don't know what went wrong. things are not the same anymore now. i just wanted to say thank you so much for being a good friend to me. he really understands me well. he is the place where i used to share my problems with. and he is also the place where i seek for advice. so, thanks again.

#4
what can i wrote about this guy ? okeyh. he is 1 year younger than me. he is such a sweet talker. and he is really good with words. sweet words to be exact. HAHA. his attitude is just like #1. seriously ! he is like the junior version of #1. and that is so not a good thing. HAHA. what ever it is, thank u so much for all the sweet talk and all the sweet things that you have done for me. thank u so much for treating me nicely and making me feel like a princess for once. HAHA. and I'm so sorry but i just don't see us being more than a friend. sorry !

#5
he was my classmate since i'm 16. he had given me a lot of stuff to prove it to me that he really likes me. i know that you are such a nice guy. but again, i don't really see us as a couple. i am so sorry !! I've tried giving you back all the gifts that you gave me. but you insist me of keeping it. so, here i wanna say thank u for the teddy bear, books, shawl, pencil case, heart-shaped pillow, and all the souvenir from all over the world. i really really appreciate it. THANK YOU !

all of the guys i have mentioned above had come and go from my life. what i share with you here are just some of the things that they had done for me. i really appreciate having them as a part of my life. even just for a short time. but, i do hope that we can still remain as a friend.

it's true when people say that friends come and go.

i really hope that the friends i have now and my rwksta buddies will remain as my friends till my life ends ;)

Dia

2010-04-06T22:22:00.001+08:00

teringin nk tulis pasal aku dan dia.

tapi...

takpelah. mungkin lain kali.
atau mungkin tidak.

Update

2010-04-01T19:11:00.004+08:00

woah. it feels like it has been forever since i last updated my blog.

it's not that i didn't have anything to write
it's just that there are so many things to talk about and i don't really know where to start.
HAHA

i really feel like writing some of my thoughts and stories here.
but, i don't find it safe (?) anymore to write things here in my blog.

there are so many judgments.

since a lot had happen, there is still one thing that lingering on my mind

hmmm.
how should i put it ?

okeyh.
would u help your family as in big family when you're having quite an easy life ?

i mean not all of your family members is fortunate like you do right ?
so would u help them ?

i know some of you might say yes.
but, how far would you help them ?
you might just said it to look good.

you know,
as i grow up
these sort of things come through my mind a lot
i became so close to reality.

it makes me realize that not all people including your big family are there to help u.
some of them are just too selfish.
but, you can always rely on your small family.

pheww !

2010-03-10T20:10:00.002+08:00

working days are finally over.

i used to be so excited for my contract with Am Assurance Berhad to end.
but when the time finally came, i suddenly felt so sad.

i will be missing them.
the staffs there.
saying goodbye to all of them today is just so sad.
tsk T.T

working there is a really great experience for me.
there are a lot of sweet memories.
of course there were a few of bad times
but, that is what makes the experience a lot more valuable.

i am so gonna miss them.
the New Business Department staffs.
thank you so much guys.

lotsa love,
saraseyra ;)

31st Jan

2010-02-01T17:09:00.002+08:00

happy birthday to my late dad.
i miss you Ayah.
may Allah bless ur soul.

people often said that i look like my dad
and my aunt also said that the way i eat is just like him

the similarities that i have with him, i guess has made me feel so close to him
i truly miss him.

i love you Ayah.

#100

2010-01-15T17:10:00.004+08:00

this is my 100th entry specially written for YASMIN SYAMIMI.
*HAHA ;D padahal entri nie tadew kene mengena pown ngn myn ;P

okeyh. just wanted to write bout what happened today during my guitar lesson.

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location; Room 14 at Yamaha, Wangsa Walk

teacher ; are u related to yuna ?
sara ; huhh ? wut ? *sambil berkerut dahi

teacher ; yeah. yuna the singer. r u related to her ?
sara ; haha. no. y ?

teacher ; owh. she reminds me of u.
sara ; hahaha ;D really ?

teacher ; yeah. when i see her i kinda think of u.
sara ; ^_____^

teacher ; it's not ur fault. it just slip through my mind when i see her.
sara ; thank u. i guess =.="

__________________________________

haha. i kinda get that a lot. LOL
neway, let me get it straight. i'm NOT trying to brag okeyh !
just wanted to share the stories. duhh -_-'

Discriminate

2010-01-10T14:52:00.002+08:00

i don't really understand why discrimination even exist.

most people don't like to discriminate nor they like to be discriminated
but still, discrimination exist

some people are just so foolish and live in this world with the thought that they're right and people who are different from them are wrong and abnormal.

just because people don't dress or think like you, that does not really mean that they are wrong. then, why the discrimination ?

i bet people who discriminate only lives among others who are just like them.

in this world, there so many races, cultures, languages and living lifestyle. so how can you even tell which are right and which are not ? we just have to accept the differences and respect each others custom. then, we can live peacefully.

people have their own perspective in seeing things. so why judge them based on that ? just because ones don't see things as you did and don't think the way you did, that does not necessarily mean that they are freaks. maybe it's you who are the freak.

i know I'm only 18 to talk bout stuff like this. but hey, it's just my opinion. i talked based on my experiences of being discriminated and based on what i observed.

till then, choww ^-^

Eighteen Rocks !

2010-01-08T15:10:00.024+08:00

woah ! I'm officially EIGHTEEN on 7th january ;D

thank u to those who wished me yesterday ;

lala, aten, nad, alin, chap ( thnx fer d surprise ^-^ )

hananinot (my gay partner. ahha ;D ), nad, abg wan, yana ( sygg, tapaya gift pown tapew lar =B ), family, fareez, imran (my atok mude. HAHA), eemey, zara, kak ija, uncle ayie, natasha, fyna (my dear cuzie), asma, efa, tasha, mayah, uncle rizal, abg men, kangazul (pronounce as kang-a-zul), kak mai and last but not least, aunty mona and uncle zaki
*nama tak ikut susunan taw*

6th Jan

my peeps and i went to this so called motivational seminar which was lead by En. Zulfekar or also known as Kangazul (pronounce as kang-a-zul). the programme was called Heal for the Heart. it was a great programme. Kangazul is actually an indonesian and he has quite a lot of experiences in giving motivational seminar. i felt thet this programme is really good to heal my heart after quite some not-so-good experiences. cewahh. HAHA ;D

and from now on, do breathe correctly and use ur diaphragm when u're breathing to burn more calories. heee ^-^ infinite love and gratitude ;)

and so, after the seminar aten, lala, alin, nad, chap and me went to superstar, wangsa walk to go for karaoke. i refused to go in at first. but they insisted me of going in. i had no idea at all that there was gonna be a surprise for me. seriously ! i never really thought of it since it was one day earlier.

then, in room 800 nad brought a chocolate cake with the candles on and all of them sang the birthday song for me. i was speechless, happy and touched. awww. thank u so much guys =') love u guys lots <333

si birthday girl.

muka tgh tahan nangis and gelak. HAHA ;P

terima kasih cik LALAt ;)
yew, tahu gmba nie goyang. suka hati lahh ;B

my peeps are having fun ;)

this is what i love to do most.

texting <33>

tiba masa untuk si gadis 18 pula menyumbangkan suara.
HAHA ;D

tahu. nampak cm drag queen kn ?

my peeps sebok bergoyang. jadi the sofa is all mine.
ahha =D

muka nk dewasa jew semua. kn kn ? heee ^-^

muka ceria si gadis 18
terima kasih my anak-anak ikan ^3^

muka gembira lepas penat melalak ;)

7th Jan

i already planned to go and catch a movie with him on 6th jan. but we had to cancelled it coz his dad was using the car. so he promised me that he'll take me to the movie today. wanna know what happened ? he had to call it of AGAIN. i was super damn frustated. hell yeah ! it was a last minute thingy. he had to drove his brother to get a car coz his brother was involve in a minor accident and does not have a car to drive to work. pffft =.=" yeah, i know i sound selfish. i just wanted at least to spent a little time with him on my birthday. that's all.

since i don't have any plans, Aunty Mona or i also address her as my mak angkat brought Ija and I to Ikano Power Centre. we had our dinner at The Steamboat Ketam Village. it was super delicious. trust me. HAHA ;D we went there to celebrate my birthday and ija's successfulness in PMR. she got 8A's in PMR. so, congrates to her ;)

this is the food that we ordered.
most of it was already half empty. haha ;P

meet Aunty Mona and her husband, Uncle Zaki.
they are sort of my adopted parents. ahha ;)

bibir merah sebab panas and pedas.
xsaba sgt nk mkn coz sedap amat. ahha ^-^

enjoying our meals ;)

muka happy lepas mkn and dpt ice blended honeydew ;)
i've been craving for that ice blended since the afternoon.

i got a pair of shoes from Aunty Mona and uncle Zaki.
thank u so much guys <33>

me and Aunty Mona.
thank u so much for the treats !!
^-^

p/s ; thank u so much to my anak-anak ikan for all the effort that u guys have made to surprise me ;) and thank u to those who wished me and gave a treat/gift. THANK YOU ^-^

December

2010-01-04T15:54:00.002+08:00

it was a very busy month for me

back from Sabah,
we have to work our ass out to prepare for the wedding
which was on 1st jan

so much for celebrating new year

i slept at 7.30 a.m on 31st dec
and woke up at 10 or 11 i guess

so much for my beauty sleep huhh

pictures will be uploaded soon
maybe.

SPM was over

2009-12-11T12:22:00.003+08:00

and i don't know why
but somehow i felt kinda bored

i was so excited to finish school before
but now, i'm not so sure about it anymore

there's no more school
i didn't know what to do

no more homework needed to be done
and no more book needed to be revised

i might die bcoz of boredom
haha xD

neway, December might be a busy month for me
a lot of things needed to be done
till 1st Jan comes around

my uncle asked us
the cousins to perform during my cousin's wedding
on 1st Jan

so we need to practice hard
for it to be perfect

i'll upload the video
if there's one. haha ;P

and i'll be going to sabah
on 23rd Dec till 29th Dec

oh, i am so gonna miss my friends
we must hang together next year
okeyh guys ?

don't forget all the plans
that we've made.
haha =)

till then,
toodles~ ^-^

Metamorphosis

2009-12-09T07:57:00.006+08:00

whew ! SPM is finally over.
i felt such a great relieved.
felt like a big burden on my shoulder has fade away
heee ^-^

this year is coming to an end
and I've gone through A LOT
there have been ups and downs in my studies and emotion
and i also realized that I'm not who i am back than

people change with time
just like a caterpillar that metamorphosed into a beautiful butterfly
as time passed by,
we all changes even with the slightest change

i know people around me have been talking
about me changing into someone different
even if they never mention it out loud
i do know that they were talking

but hey people !
i don't really change that much
maybe as for u guys,
it might looked like a big change
but, it's NOT

I've been this way since before
i have always been like this
ask my family
just that none of u really have the slightest intention
to get to know me that well

i know people are blaming them
for my ups and downs in my studies
and people are blaming them
for the changes that I've gone through

but just so u know
they are NOT the blame for all that
it's all me
i am responsible for everything i did

so i really hope that all of u
would STOP blaming them
stop blaming MY FRIENDS

FULLSTOP !

p/s ; morphine ? i don't do drugs
margarita ? i don't drink
Marlboro ? i don't smoke
mango ? i never knew that it comes in mango flavour. HAHA ;D
but i do <33 MNG ^-^

es-pi-em [SPM]

2009-11-06T17:29:00.002+08:00

OMG !

i can't believe that there is only 1 week left till the big day come.

wish me luck okeyh people.
i really hope that i will pass my SPM with flying colours.

Ya Allah,
kau kurniakanlah Sarah Bt Osman otak yang cerdas
dan ingatan yang kuat.
permudahkanlah dirinya untuk menajawab soalan peperiksaan nanti.
permudahkanlah dirinya untuk menerima dan mengingati
segala apa yang dipelajarinya dan dibacanya.
kurniakanlah dirinya 10A+ dalam peperiksaan SPM 2009 nanti.
Amin Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.

thank you people ^-^

To All Form4 Students

2009-10-22T14:43:00.003+08:00

Good luck for your final exam guys ^-^

and to you ;

i wanna see how far and how good you were without me
since when u're with me, you can't pay any attention to ur studies right
i bet u can do so when u're with her.

HAHA ;D

i wanna see how great ur final exam result will be
i wanna see u be at the top position in ur class
and i bet u'r mom doesn't scold u anymore right.

aku pasti kau punya result mesti GEMPAK punya lahh.

HAHAHA ;D

and and, i also heard that ur discipline agk menurun dlm pengawas.
what happen eyh ?
i tot i'm d one that made u sorta bad.
i guess that proves that i'm NOT.

ahha ;D

Nasihat

2009-10-15T19:49:00.002+08:00

tadi time BM, like always
cikgu akan bagi motivation or even some advice
i love her when she do that ^-^

since SPM was just around the corner
so, cikgu gave us some advice
on the technique of how we should study
until the big day come

so one of her advice that really caught my ear was ;
buat baik dan jaga hubungan baik dengan ibubapa, guru dan KAWAN-KAWAN
barulah boleh berjaya

i guess she was right
see, we do need friends in our life
so, to those out there who think that they can survive without ANY friends
i think u should really think twice about it

Forgive and Forget (?)

2009-10-14T17:22:00.003+08:00

yeah, it is so much easier to apologise to people
after mistakes had been done

so much easier to forgive people for their mistakes
after all, we are humans

but to forget is so much harder

you don't easily forget ur memories
especially when it was the sweet one and even the bitter one

you don't easily torn up somebody's heart or soul
with all your promises and words
and in the end, apologise for what you have done

what do you expect ?
you expect them to just forget about it ?
pfft. it might takes time

i had forgive you a long time ago
but, to forget ?
i don't know.

Quality Time

2009-10-12T21:31:00.002+08:00

today i spent some quality time with my mom
just the two of us
i love spending time with her

my mom made an appointment for me at 3
so i had facial and my mom had her hair spa

since both of us haven't had our lunch yet,
so we decided to go and eat at nz

while waiting for our food
my mom suddenly said ;
"kalau mama tanya nie, along jangan mara eyh ?"

i was like ;
"mmm, okeyh. pasal ape ? pasal tudung eyh ?"
*yew. aku tak pakai tudung time tuhh. pegi lahh mengumpat*

then my mom said ;
"tak lahh. bukan pasal tuhh. along ngn ______ ade papew kew ?"

me *muke lega. HAHA* ;
"takde lahh. cuzin jew. perlu kew ade papew ? HAHA. knp ?"

so the conversation goes on
i even told her the BIG secret that i know
and asked her some advice on it

i really like the way she approached me tadi.

i felt very happy everytime we had the mother-daughter talk
she can be a great friend when i need somebody to talk to
and a great mother when i need some wise advice

I LOVE YOU MOM !! ^_^

Missing You

2009-10-07T19:59:00.004+08:00

i love it when you always smell nice.
i love the smell of your perfume.

awwww. i think i'm falling for you.
ahha ^-^

Hari Raya

2009-09-24T20:39:00.010+08:00

first of all, i wanted to say that this entry will be VERY long. trust me when i said VERY long. HAHA. so it's up to u if u wanna read it ^-^

RAYA EVE

woke up early and helped nenek cooked rendang.
technically, i cook the rendang this year. ahha =D
mak long and fina made the sandwich cake which is our family tradition cake.
u won't get it anywhere else. hehe ^-^
then, i have to wash the large wok that we used to cook the rendang.
send ija to lrt station.
bake some cookies with teefa and ika.
while waiting, i helped nenek, my mom and my aunts with their inai.
work non-stop till night and sleep around 4 a.m.
i am damn effing tired.

1st RAYA

woke up around 9. HAHA =D
pak ngah and family were already here during subuh.
early huhh ?
it took 2 hours for us girls to get ready. ahha ^-^
so, after all of us were ready, it's time for a family photo.
weeee~
all the granddaughters of haji nasir took a picture together.
but, too bad. aina was not here.
if only u came early that day dear cuzie.

my grandparents. they're cute together ^-^
they've been married for 52 years now.

mak long's family.

pak ngah's family.

mak lang's family. which is my family =)
it has been 7 years since my dad passed away.
may ALLAH bless him.
Al-Fatihah.

ucu's family. pak ucu is the photographer of the family. hehe ;)

the grandchildren of Haji Nasir.
only pak uda's children weren't here.
we are a very happy small family =)

too bad that pak uda and family was not here early. so sorry aina.
that night, i went karaoke with my paternal cousins around 12 a.m.
and got back home around 4 a.m.
it was a BLAST night ;)

2nd RAYA

juz sit at home coz there were people coming over.
people came non-stop till night.
penat tahu ?
HAHA =D

3rd RAYA

went to my nenek saudara house somewhere in bangi.
and that afternoon went to pak uda's house.
then went to the curve and had our dinner there.

4th RAYA

went to shah alam to nek andak's and nek teh's house.
then went to sacc mall and finally to ou to search for tifa's prom dress.
and she finally got one.
which cost about rm 300.
it's a really beautiful one =)

p/s ; more pictures coming later. heee~ ^-^

Little Conversation

2009-09-17T21:19:00.002+08:00

B : yang mane ?
A : yang tuhh.
B : tak lawa pown (sambil buat muka)
A : ........... (terdiam sebentar) HAHAHAHA =D

_____________________________________________________

C : A, yang mane satu ?
A : yang kat depan tuhh.
C : mane ?
A : yang _________ skeyt tuhh.
C : tak cantik pown.
A : .......... (sekali lagi terdiam) HAHAHAHAH =D

_____________________________________________________

D : sape sape ?
A : yang _________ tuhh lar
D : lorh. dye kew ? tak lawa lahh. kalau aku, aku pilih kau.
A : .............. (reaksi biase. terdiam kejap) HAHAHAHA =D

_____________________________________________________

tuhh jew lahh yang aku mampu buat bila orang cakap pasal kau. aku cuma mampu diam dan ketawa. aku tak boleh berkata lebih. tuhh pendapat dan pandangan diorang. kan kan ? ^-^

p/s ; HAPPY HARI RAYA PEOPLE. HAVE A GREAT HARI RAYA =D

Breathe

2009-09-13T00:48:00.005+08:00

this video is specially dedicated to you.

I see your face in my mind as I drive away
'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time

Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm
Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm

Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve
People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me
It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me, oh

I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

p/s ; sorry for the unpleasant voice. and just ignore the sound of the fan and the messy room. i know i got some of the lyrics wrong. sorry bout that too.

I Don't Understand

2009-09-11T17:19:00.005+08:00

i don't understand why this happen
and i don't really understand why it happen in the first place

if possible,
i don't want this to happen
i want things back the way they were
i want things back to normal

i don't understand why you have to pull your face with me
have i done something wrong ?
or maybe, just maybe you think that i was pulling my face at you
while the fact is that I'm not.

coz i will never do that
i've tried smiling at you
but then, you'll pull your face away

i've tried talking to you
but then again, you will pull your face away

you will turn your back away
when you see me or whenever i came near you
do you know how much it hurts me ?
do you even bother to care ?

IT HURTS ME BADLY
seriously, it does.

it may not show on the outside
but it feels deeply in the inside

i laugh loud to hide what i feel
i smile a lot so that nobody knows what is bugging me
i pretend that i have no problems when i'm with them
and only with them, i can forget all of my problems

and i really really hope Ya Allah,
that things will be back to the way it were

p/s ; i kept all your messages and i hold your promises. and mine too. i still remember my promise to you.

I Don't Want

2009-09-09T15:59:00.008+08:00

anything that can jeopardise our friendship to happen.
i love the friendship that i have.

Maaf

2009-09-06T23:22:00.002+08:00

saya malas dan tak suka nak bergaduh dan bertikam lidah
apatah lagi sekarang ini bulan Ramadan
bulan yang mulia

oleh itu,
saya dengan rendah diri dan hati yang ikhlas
mengatur sepuluh jari memohon maaf kepada semua

maaf andai tingkah laku ini tidak disenangi
maaf andai kata-kata pernah mengguris hati
maaf andai perlakuan diri tidak disukai

jika terdapat apa-apa kesalahan yang pernah saya lakukan kepada semua
dalam sedar ataupun tidak
saya minta maaf

maaf dari hujung rambut hingga hujung kaki
maaf dari badan kanan hingga badan kiri

harap maaf saya ini diterima oleh semua.

yang ikhlas ;
saraseyra

Haihh =.=

2009-09-04T13:41:00.007+08:00

having a fever during fasting month and trial was so not cool
haihh =.=

kau tak perlu jadi kakak mahupun adik untuk rasa marah
kau tak perlu jadi form 1 atau form 5 untuk rasa tak puas hati
kerana kakak mahupun adik,
form1 atau form 5
kedua-duanya ialah manusia yang punya hati dan perasaan

ehem. kau nk ckp aku cari pasal ?
cube kau fikir dalam-dalam dan jauh-jauh
sape yang cari pasal dengan sape dulu ?

minta maaf pown penat kew ?
nampak sangat tak ikhlas.
kalau ikhlas, takkan timbul rasa penat dan menyesal

dan lagi satu, ape bukti kau yang aku kutuk kau ?
ape bukti kau yang aku kutuk kau dalam bulan puasa nie ?
sedap mulut kau jew kan fitnah orang
kau tak fikir pulakk yang kau tuhh menfitnah dalam bulan puasa

dan aku nak tanya kau
apa eyh yang aku dapat kalau aku kutuk kau ?
perlu kew aku kutuk kau ?
kau bukan siapa-siapa dalam hidup aku
jadi aku rase tadew sebab untuk aku ambil kisah pasal kau

aku tak pernah mengharapkan apa-apa dari kau
pernah kew aku suruh kau minta maaf ?
pernah kew aku suruh kau mengaku kesalahan kau ?
yang kau nak terasa lebih kenapa ?
nampak sangat kau dah buat salah

lagi satu
ape bukti kau yang aku tak ikhlas maafkan kau ?
kau boleh baca hati aku kew ?
apa yang ada kat dalam hati aku nie
kau takkan tahu
kau mungkin boleh buat andaian
tapi andaian tuhh salah

ingin aku tekankan kepada kau
aku tak benci kau
dan aku tak perlu untuk membenci kau
ia tak memberi apa-apa manfaat kepada aku

dan senyuman aku itu ikhlas
tiada apa yang tersirat mahupun tersurat
jadi, tolong jangan cakap ikut sedap mulut
fikir dahulu sebelum berkata-kata

p/s ; kalau kau rasa ini tiada kaitan dengan kau, jangan nak terasa lebih.

NOTICE

2009-08-27T17:37:00.004+08:00

haha. title tanak bla owh ;D

okeyh. juz wanted to tell u guys that i may not update this blog much anymore
since there are so many stalkers out there

so i made a new one
more private one

to u guys out there
who still wanna read my blog
just simply leave ur email add at the cbox or the comment of this entry

that's all
thank u neway

p/s ; url for new blog ' sararwksta.blogspot.com ' . LALA , bley eyh tiru ejaan rwksta ? heee ^___^

Cliche

2009-08-25T18:37:00.005+08:00

It’s funny yet very sad to know that
one(s) who u considered as ur bestfriend(s) didn’t think the same way bout u
I mean it’s sad to just think about it

U’ll end up feeling like a loser at the end of the day
Pathetic huhh ?

People around u might just give the same cliche advice
Just chill. People are like that. And what so ever

But u can’t just neglect how u felt right ?

This is how I feel lately
I don’t really know why
Mungkin aku yang terase lebih

Hmm, mungkin.

tapi knp kalau aku yang terasa lebih salah ?
kalau orang itu ialah kau,
ia akan menjadi satu perkara yang betul sebetul-betulnya

mungkin aku tak layak untuk rasa sebegitu.

maaf jika aku ketiadaan kredit utk bertanya khabar
i was not born with silver spoon in my mouth
maaf jika aku tidak menyapa mahupun meninggalkan comment di laman sesawang yang ada
aku tidak selalu berada di atas talian

tapi itu semua tidak bermakna aku tidak kisah
tidak bermakna aku tidak peduli
aku sudah tahu khabar dari sumber yang boleh dipercayai

baik
mungkin aku juga salah
tidak menyuruh orang yang sepatutnya bertanyakan khabar
aku juga salah
kerana tidak menyuruh orang yang sepatutnya menyampaikan salam

memang aku yang salah
semua kesalahan dilemparkan kepada aku
memang aku yang terasa lebih
tapi itu hak aku

p/s ; enuf with the sarcasm already. Who do u think I am ? A heartless human being ?

Ramadan

2009-08-22T21:05:00.004+08:00

Syaaban has gone and here comes Ramadan
i hope that it's not too late for me to wish u guys happy fasting ;)

it feels like time is flying by so fast
feels like just yesterday i was taking PMR
and now i'm sitting for SPM

with Ramadan here,
SPM feels so close

OMG !
i am so not ready yet

i know i have to face it sooner or later
but i couldn't bare thinking about it

i don't think I'm ready to grow up yet
and i don't even know when I'll be ready

what am i gonna do after SPM ?
i am so gonna miss my friends and school

I'm gonna miss the high school drama
and all the school activities

i can't imagine my life without school
who would ever thought that I'd be missing school this much.
HAHA ^__^

this thought keeps bugging me nowadays
hmmm, I'm scared to just think about the future

it's a big responsibility of being an adult
will i be able to hold that responsibility ?

21st Aug

2009-08-21T13:40:00.005+08:00

happy birthday dear friend.
may Allah bless u and may u have a prosperous life.
have a healthy and wealthy life. ahha ;D
owh. and, may u achieve all ur dreams and hopes in life ^____^

lotsa love ;
saraseyra <3

Prefect's Gathering

2009-08-14T19:17:00.002+08:00

nasyid performance by Al-Manna.
sedap kn ?
me likey ^_____^

Bcoz of You

2009-08-13T16:43:00.004+08:00

i cried twice today
juz because of you
but i don't think you notice that
since you don't have a clue

this fragile heart of mine
has been broken by so many times
yet it never hated them
who had done such a scam

I'm not in the mood today
that's why i play
as if i am okay
while the real thing is everything was grey

but no matter how i tried
to hide what's inside
people would juz might
know even juz in a sight

to those who ask
why I'm so blue
i don't know what to say
or what i should do

Ku Katakan Dengan Indah

2009-08-12T20:36:00.004+08:00

trial is juz a few days away.
and here i am, sitting down in front of my laptop blogging about nothing.

owh. and this is the video that i made this evening.
i was so boring and decided to make this video.
i made it juz for fun. so enjoy. HAHA =D

actually, there are a lot of stuff that i kept inside me.
juz waiting for the right time to finally burst out.

but, i don't really know when.
i don't really have the guts to let it all out juz yet.

wish me luck with the trial guys =)

p/s ; i know my voice is bad. but, who cares. i'm not a singer. ahha =D

Deep Down Inside

2009-08-10T08:58:00.002+08:00

I'm a rebellious kid.
and I've always been that way.

juz that i don't really have the guts to do what i feel.
maybe that's the difference between me and other rebellions out there.
I'm not that brave nor daring.

i am so tired of the good girl image that people gave me.
they wanted me and expected me to be the way they want me to be.
a good girl.

and now I'm finally have the guts to do what i feel.
this is what happened when my rage gets control of me.

goodbye school.
and hello home.

so to YOU ________,
don't ever try to challenge me with something.
coz when I've the guts to do it,
I'LL DO IT !!

Super Bish !

2009-08-05T19:06:00.005+08:00

PERINGATAN : entri ini mungkin panjang nya berjela. ayat nya juga mungkin penuh dengan kata-kata amarah kerana penulis sedang menulis mengikut emosi. *HAHA. poyo jew ayt*

ehem.

korang nie kenape eyh sbnr nye ?
knp perlu ade rase tak puas hati ?
knp perlu rse tercabar dan tergugat dgn aku ?
pelik. sungguh pelik !

korang dpn aku bukan main baik lagi.
macam malaikat.
blkg aku, kutuk aku habis-habisan kan ?
korang fikir aku tak tahu ?
korang fikir aku bodoh sangat kew macam korg ?

hey !
cube korg cermin diri korang tuhh dulu.
korg nk ckp org hipokrit ?
korg nk ckp org plastik ?
yang korang FAKE gyler babi tuhh takpe.
tak hipokrit kew name nyew ?!

owh, lpe pulakk.
korg kan mmg baik.
korg kan PERFECT !
aku jew yang jahat.
aku jew yang bish !

wanna know what ?
i regret ever knowing u and told u stories.
coz in the end, u used it to go against me and stabbed me in the back.
dasar kawan makan kawan.

eyh, chop !
kte kawan kew ?
korg kan BERLAKON jew jadi kawan aku.
pfft !

jgn terkejut kalau lps nie aku lyn korg cam palat ;)

hmm.
lepas berfikir sejenak, baru aku teringat.
selama nie sume bende yang dia cakap kat aku ade betol nya.

aku patut lebih berhati-hati dengan korg yg BUSUK HATI nya.
lepas sume nie berlaku, baru aku tahu dan nmpk ape yg dia mksd kn.

korg mesti gembira dan sedang bergelak ketawa
sampai pecah perut dengan ape yg berlaku kn ?
mklm lahh. korg kan memang tak suka ktorg.
dasar HATI BUSUK !

tengok lahh.
dengan perangai korg yg s**l cam b**i nie,
takde sape yang akan percaya n suke kat korg dahh.
satu hari nanti korg akan dpt blsn nyew jgkk.
what goes around, comes around.
do keep that in mind okeyh Loser !

kpd dia ;
saya minta maaf dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki.
harap sume kesalahan saya dimaafkan.
maaf. maaf. maaf dan maaf.
sampai bila kit nak cmnie ??
hmmm =(

Adore

2009-08-03T19:27:00.004+08:00

i really adore this guy.
he's from Brunei and he wrote this song himself.
it's called kau tahu.
he has such a great voice and he plays the guitar very well.

I'm a huge fan of him.
but i don't really know whether he's an artist or not.

I'm such a fan of guys that can play the guitar.
a great voice is a plus.
heeee ;)

BitterHeart

2009-07-24T21:41:00.004+08:00

mmm, i juz wanted to let you guys know that i'll no longer be using my phone for some reasons.
if u guys wanted to contact me, juz leave me some comment at my myspace or my blog.

i'm totally in a no-phone mood.

Unstable

2009-07-23T20:01:00.002+08:00

i don't know what got into me lately
but my mood is like a roller coaster right now

sometimes I'm okeyh
and the next minute
I'll be like all moody and stuff

what is wrong with me ?
why do i feel so empty ?
and lost ?

whatever. juz forget about it.

to all my friends,
i am so sorry if i had hurt u guys in anyway.
sorry for the bad words
sorry for the bad behavior
sorry for everything

Hey Adik !

2009-07-18T23:46:00.008+08:00

sdey sgt tp dlm2 sdey pon skang tgh msj gn mundzir...
ye lah...main lah sampai awk tesuke ngan dier...awk ni bkn bole arap
hahaha..
xnk r..
nk setia..ceh!
s...tu ske men kn lelaki..mntg2 die tu cntek!deny taw lps bce..
sape ske main kn laki???x bape paham lah ape yg awk tulis
eee,,yg mke die cm ckgu tuu

hahaha. klaka lahh anda2 ini budak kecik. sumpah kelaka. sampai tegang2 urat akak gelak tahu ? =D

pertama ;
kalau adek2 tanak orang tahu tentang ape yang adek2 sekalian sedang mengumpat kan, xperlu lahh main comment di myspace. kawan adek pown mmg deny sbnr nyew comment tuhh. pandai sungguh lahh adek2 nie ^-^

kedua ;
adek mahu ckp akak suke main kan lelaki ? ehem. cermin diri tuhh dulu yew adek. cbe adek renung dan lihat, diri adek tuhh xmain kan laki kew ? kawan adek sendiri yang cakap adek xboleh harap kn ? kawan baik pulakk tuhh. ape kes ?

ketiga ;
memang akak chantek. kenapa ? cemburu ? HAHAHA =D ( okeyh. ini saje2 perasan okeyh. ignore aje. haha =P ) btw, adek msg dgn ex akak and u really believe what he told u ? haha. kesian adek. kene tipu bulat2. akak kenal dye lebih lama and lebih dalam. so akak tahu mcm mana perangai dye. adek nak terus percaya kan dye, GO AHEAD =D

keempat ;
apa yang adek tak puas hati ngan akak eyh ? tapaham lahh =_=" u didn't even know me pown adek. jadi kenapa perlu judge akak ? adek dahh judge diri sendiri ?

kelima ;
adek nak setia ? HAHAHAHAHAHA =D biar akak gelak puas2 dulu okeyh ? kalau adek setia, kenapa adek break ngan AZRIL ? u think i didn't know ? HAHA =D sesungguh nyew dia sayangkan adek sgt kan ? kata nyew. HAHAHAHA =D

keenam ;
akak tahu adek akan bce entri nie. if bukan adek pown, kawan2 adek kan ? biasa lahh. anda2 seklian kan memang stalker ? haha =D ( why u're so obsessed with me ? *jime n lala, sambung nyanyi. haha =D* )

ketujuh ;
okeyh. sambung membebel. jika adek tak puas hati dengan akak, confront aje okeyh ? itu pown jika adek berani. maklumlah, budak kecik yang rase diri dia dah cukup matang nie selalu nyew berani cakap belakang jew. bila jumpa dpn2 buat muka tak bersalah, konon chomeyl. euwww. nak termuntah tahu ? =)

kelapan ;
akak tak pernah nak cari pasal apatah lagi bergaduh dengan budak kecik macam adek nie. jadi, kenapa adek harus mulakan nya dahulu ?

kesembilan ;
akak juz nak cakap anda sungguh kelakar okeyh adek yang sohai =D

kesepuluh ;
kenapa adek perlu ade perasaan tak puas hati dengan akak eyh ? cemburu kew ? haha =D sesungguh nya jealousy itu tak bagus okeyh adek. im just so damn effing sorry that u're not me =)

p/s ; harry potter boring =|

What Goes Around, Comes Around

2009-07-13T17:54:00.002+08:00

apa yang tertulis, tu lahh maksud dye.
haha =D

and it kinda happen to me in a good way.
and i'm glad for that =)

Blahh

2009-07-11T00:13:00.003+08:00

the more i try to forget you
the more i remember you

the more i try to forget you
the more i miss you

the more i try to hide this feelings
the more i try to deny it
the more i _______

haha. feel in the blanks urself. i am so not ready to share what i feel right now. NOT YET.

i am thinking of you
in my sleepless solitude tonight
if it's wrong to love you
then my heart just won't let me be right
cause i'm drowned in you
and i won't pull through
withought you by my side

Confession #2

2009-07-05T21:45:00.002+08:00

i want the old you back
i never wanted for you to change
please be the old you
i miss the old you

please, please please dear..

IMISSYOU!!

p/s ; this is so not about the guy with orange collar on his white t-shirt.

Stalker

2009-07-03T18:47:00.003+08:00

owh dear stalker
do go and get a life okeyh

i'm just so sorry that you are not me
and i am just sorry that my life is better than yours

if you still wanna go and ask you friends to add me and stalk me
go ahead darling
coz it'll only make you much more pathetic than u already were
and it'll only make you more envious than u already did

so my advice to you dear stalker bish
do go and get your own life
and stay away from mine okeyh =)

Empty

2009-06-29T17:11:00.003+08:00

there are so many things that i wanted to say.
but i don't really know where to start.

i know I'm such a burden
i should never be born into this world
all i ever did was hurt people
and caused problems

i never lied to you
all the things i said was true
i never have any intention of hurting you
but i guess that is what i just did out of blue

everything i told you was sincerely from my heart
but there was a thing that i just realized
and i know it tear your heart apart
but trust me, i never lied to you from the start

I'm sorry to all of you
who i ever hurt or caused problems to

worry no more dear
coz i won't disturb you anymore
wish you all the best in your life
happy always and you'll never be replaced

i always love you mama
and i miss you so much ayah
sometimes i wish you were here
hold me close and shed away my tears

I'm not questioning the fate
nor do I'm blaming my destiny
but i guess I'm not strong enough
to go through all this with my agony

robohkanlah dinding egomu itu sayang

lembutkanlah kekerasan hatimu itu
belajarlah mengalah sesekali waktu
aku terlalu rindu akan dikau yang lalu

sincerely,
saraseyra.

Confession

2009-06-27T22:38:00.003+08:00

i truly deeply miss you.

i can't lie to myself anymore.

now i've said it,
i feel much better.

i wish that i could turn back time
so that we can be just like before.

p/s ; i am so sorry and i miss you.

SweetAsSugar

2009-06-21T21:05:00.003+08:00

first of all, i wanted to wish a big fat happy birthday to my super gay partner, hanan izzati =)
happy 17th birthday sayangg !!

so today, we (me, nad, hanan and safwan) went to pavilion to celebrate hanan's birthday. our plan was to go for a karaoke at red box. but, the price was way expensive on Sunday. so we decided skipped the karaoke and just went for a lunch instead.

we had our lunch at Carl's Jr. and we spent hours there talking and laughing our lungs out. haha =D the burger was huge. so we decided to share. i shared my food with nad, and hanan shared hers with safwan. awww, they were so sweet. trust me =)

after hours at Carl's Jr, we went to the surau and had our prayer. we just spent a few more hours at pavilion. then back to klcc and back home.

seriously, hanan and safwan were so sweet together today. seeing them together reminds me a lot at the time when i had a boyfriend. haha =P

suddenly, i felt like i miss the moment when i used to have one. don't get me wrong. i don't miss my ex. i just miss the moment that we shared. we would talked, laughed and just enjoyed each second that we shared and spent together.

i am not desperate to have a boyfriend right now. it's not like I'd die without 'em. single is fun. trust me. ;)

and to you my dear, may god bless you and may you pass ur spm with flying colours. smoge berkekalan dengan safwan. love you lots huney <33 xoxo =)

Casting

2009-06-19T18:22:00.004+08:00

yesterday i received a call from kak hana from Stream Entertainment and Production asking me whether i could come to their place on Friday at 3 which is today or not. they wanted me to do a casting as they are searching for new talents.

so, i said I'm not sure yet since i have to ask my mom first. then that night i told my mom about the call. and whether i could go or not. and she said, why not. then i called kak hana back and told her that i could go.

so, today i went there with my mom. they asked me to fill a form and i did. then kak qys explained a lil bit about the casting to me. if i was accepted in this casting which i'm not confident that i will get, i will have to attend classes which they will train me on how to be a singer, model and actress. HAHA =P

so, the first thing that i was asked to do was pose. i have to pose for 4 different poses. then a closed up photography.

second thing that i got to do was act. they asked me to do 3 different facial expression which were sad, mad and happy.

then, i have to do a lil catwalk and pose.

the last one was my favourite one =) the asked me to sing. so i sung a song called the show by Lenka. i love that song =)

after all that, kak qys called me to her room. she said that i have a great voice but it needed to be brush up a lil bit. and she also said that i have a potential and can go far in modelling. she said that i was thin and tall. bt, i was like what ?? =_=" i am so NOT what she said i am. haha =D

then, she explained to me about the classes. this means that i was accepted. yeayy !!! but, i have to asked my mom first of course. and i didn't make any decision yet whether to accept the offer or not. any oppinion guys ? haha ;)

so that was a lil bit about the casting. toodles ^-^

p/s ; i dont have any attention of bragging okeyh biatch !! ^^

Sleepover At Aina's

2009-06-07T22:24:00.009+08:00

we as in me, ija and fyna were having a sleepover at aina's.

fyna went back at 3 p.m. today.

so, while waiting for my mom to pick me up, aina and i decided to make a video.

the video was taken by ija.

so, here is the video.

enjoy !! =)

warning ; before u click the play button, i warn u to buy an ear pluck. HAHA =D

told u to buy an ear pluck. =P btw, we know our voice are not that great.

but, who cares. this video was made juz for fun. LOL ;)

The Big P

2009-06-02T21:20:00.003+08:00

woohooo !!!

finally i got my P license.

after all the tiring yet fun class
i finally got the big P ^-^

today was my JPJ test
and i would lie if i said that i'm not nervous
i could totally feel the the butterflies in my stomach

so i woke up early in the morn as in 6.30 a.m. and waited for abg faizal, my instructor to pick me up at medan tuanku at 8.
then, we went to dengkil for the test

we arrived there around 9.45 a.m
the 1st session already started
and you know what ?
i got the 3rd session which started at 2.30 p.m.

i was like what ??
what am i supposed to do for that long hours of waiting ?
i could die of boredom

but thank God, i met this group of people and hang out with them

after a long long long hours of waiting,
finally the 3rd session was about to start

so, i went to d office and took my number which is 17, and registered at the JPJ counter
by that time i was super nervous
all i could think about was amie's advice
thnx amie =)

after completed all the task, then it was time for the road test
and again, Alhamdulillah i passed
i' m so glad that i got JPJ officer that kinda cool ;)

special thanx to amie and futra for giving me support throughout the day and pray for me. thnx to my mom and my instructor for all the advice. and thnx for believing in me guys. love ya lots =)

TaggedByTeefa

2009-05-30T14:17:00.002+08:00

1. Apa perasaan sekarang?
emotionless

2. Saya nak makan
baskin and robins.

3. Saya tak suka
stuck in boredem

4. Impian saya
make my mom happy and proud

5. Haiwan yang saya tidak suka
cats. HAHA

6. Saya Harapkan
pass SPM with flying colours

7. Jika boleh di putarkan masa..
i would go back to the past

8.Saya pada 10 tahun akan datang...
i'll be 27 and married kowt. have a stable job with high pay. heee~

9. Handfon saya adalah sebuah...
part of my life. i stay connected with my friends through it

11. Saya pernah bercinta sebanyak....
twice

12. Saya suka pada...
music and my guitar

13. Kawan-kawan saya...
my life

14. Pernah dikhianati?
think so

15. Apa yang anda hendak lakukan terhadap orang yang mengkhianati anda?
silence is d best treatment. so let bygone be bygone.

Haish +_+

2009-05-28T19:38:00.002+08:00

hmmm.
juz nk cte pasal td.

td gy mkn kt blue corner. pastu ktorg pown order lahh mknn.
tmpt yg ktowg slalu mkn tuhh tutup. so mkn kt restoran len.

then a few minutes later, mknn smpy.
yg bish nyew, nenek yg anta mknn tuhh tadew budi bahasa langsungg !!
perangai cm haram.
nme kedai sri murni.
tp perangai kau cm bish !

dew kew mse dye anta mknn, dy gy ckp ;

" nie nie. bayar nie " sambil tangan dye tunjuk mknn yg ktowg order tuhh.

if dye ckp ngn lemah lembut dan bersopan santun bley trime agy.
nie x. ckp smbl buat muke.

lalu nenek tuhh pegi dengan membuat muke palat.

owh, well HELLo nenek.
it's not like we're not gonna pay fer our food.
ktowg slalu jew mkn kt blue corner tuhh.
tak pena plakk ktowg lari and tak byr.

kau igt ktorg tak mampu ?
restoran kau mmg VS.

haish =_="

A Puppet I Am

2009-05-23T23:12:00.003+08:00

a puppet i am
for you to play with
and throw it when you don't need it

my feelings wasn't important
as a puppet i am
i have to care about your feelings
but you don't have to care bout mine

such a stupid puppet i am
to trust you, to care bout you
and hope you'd understand

but what can a puppet do ?
a puppet will always be a puppet
which it's feelings wasn't important
as a puppet i am

mengapa selalu aku yang mengalah
tak pernah kau berfikir
sedikit tentang hatiku ?

MyPreciousThing

2009-05-23T22:55:00.003+08:00

i just lost my most precious thing
the thing that i can never imagine living without

i could never imagine my life without it
and now that it's gone
my life is completely empty, dull, bored and lost

what a life without a soul ?

maybe i rely on it too much
or maybe i hope on it too much
i don't have such intention to do that
but what is past can't be reversed back

now i have to try and learn
to live my life without my most precious thing

i hope my days would be as bright as the day
when my precious thing is there.

HappyBirthday Amie ;)

2009-05-19T22:02:00.002+08:00

happy birthday Amie !! i made this video specially for you =)

p/s ; sory for the bad guitar playing n the bad voice. ;)

LazyBummer

2009-05-02T17:58:00.002+08:00

boring.
my day is boring, dull and blank.

mid year exam is just around the corner.
and here i am in front of my laptop writing about nothing.

trial and spm.
i am so not ready to face it yet.

study.
i have the eager to study.
but my laziness overcome it all.

license.
can't wait to get my license.
but i am lazy to go and practice.

lazy lazy lazy.
that is what i am now.
such a lazy bummer.

wake up Sara !
there's not much time.
somebody please give her a wake up call.

I Write

2009-04-23T18:25:00.003+08:00

i write to tell a story
i write to express my feelings
i write to share
i write so that i feel okeyh

i never had any intention
of bragging, hurting others feelings nor selling stories

if it's wrong for me to write
guess i need to find another way for me
to express how i feel so that I'd be okeyh

i need a place to express
how i feel, what I'm thinking and what had happen

i like to share
i like to write

if it so wrong for me to do such thing
then i think I'd go crazy with all my thoughts
that my mind couldn't bear keeping anymore

CikguKate

2009-04-22T21:57:00.002+08:00

cikgu kate
orang yang hebat takkan tunjuk kehebatan dia

cikgu kate
orang yang makin tinggi kehebatan dia
makin tinggi jugak sifat rendah diri dia

cikgu jugak kate
orang yang tak hebat saja tujukkan kehebatan dia
walaupun dia baru jew belajar kehebatan tuhh

jadi apa guna kau menunjuk ?
kau rase kau hebat ?
kau rase orang kesah ?

hahh.
tidak langsung.

orang xpena kesa pown actually
coz ramai dah yang boleh lakukan itu

jadi kau sebenarnya tak hebat
sama seperti apa yang cikgu katakan

Sahabat

2009-04-22T19:23:00.003+08:00

kawan
rakan
sahabat
teman

semua tuhh membawa makna yang sama

kawan ?
kawan tuhh ape ?
hmmm..

kalau takde kawan, hidup pasti susah
tapi, kalau...............pown susah jugakk

kalau ramai kawan, hidup mungkin ceria
tapi akan susah bila..............

aku punya ramai kawan
tak mungkin aku boleh puaskan hati semua

aku jugak manusia
manusia yang punya perasaan
susah untuk aku puaskan hati semua orang

perasaan kawan aku perlu jaga
tapi, perasaan aku ?

dan...

kenapa aku yang perlu cari korang ?
salah ke kalau korang yang cari aku ?

kenapa aku yang kena tegur korang dulu ?
salah kew kalau korang yang tegur aku dulu ?

kenapa aku yang salah bila aku tak buat sume tuhh ?
kalau korang pulakk macam mana ?

jadi, YA !
aku SALAH !

SEMUA SALAH AKU !

Name

2009-04-22T19:09:00.002+08:00

i was born by the name sara

but i also have a few names that u can call me;

dilla, aida, hayati, *******, mina,
***, ***, sha, amira, ****, ira,
juliana, tun, nadya and so much more.

haha =D sorry if i offended any of you. this entry is dedicated especially to YOU ! ;)

L

2009-04-06T17:06:00.004+08:00

woah. today was my first official driving lesson.
it was not that bad as i thought it would be.

but my instructor was not pak ali since he can't come in the evening.
my lesson was after school at 3 o'clock. so i got abg faisal instead.
abg ? hmm, I'm not really sure what to call him. since he's not that old.

i had my driving lesson at duke's highway.
I'd be lying if i say that I'm not afraid.
all the cars there are like super fast (exaggerating) . haha =D

but, thank god it turned out so well. i got to drive at 80 km/h. how cool is that ? hehe =p
owh. then, after a while, he asked me to drive at 60 km/h.
but, i kinda like accelerate a lil bit. so he kept telling to slow down a little since i am still new.
and he said that it's okeyh to drive slow. as my safety comes first ;)

i can't wait to get my P. eventhough today was just the first lesson. HAHA =D

p/s ; sory for not updating my blog for such a long time. juz that the Internet at my house has some problems. so i can't online till it gets fix.

I Will Be

2009-03-09T21:26:00.004+08:00

this song is dedicated to you huney ;)

Embarrassed

2009-03-02T14:59:00.002+08:00

haha. imagine that your uncle reads your blog. yes. i repeat, he reads your blog. YOUR BLOG ! how embarrassed is that ? HAHAHA

last Saturday, i spent the whole day with my cousin, Aina and my uncle. the day was great ! seriously, it was GREAT !! who ever thought that my uncle could be so cool ? HAHA

he taught us so many things. about life, music and even photography. he took such a great photo. his snapshots are beautiful. i love the photos that he took. but too bad, I'm not photogenic. haha

on Sunday, Aina, Fina and i went to my aunt's apartment to go for a swim. instead of swimming, we just bath in the pool and talked about boyfriends, the past, our childhood, and stuff. it was loads of fun =)

i love spending times with my cousins and family. I'm glad that i have such a great bond with them. i appreciate every moment that i spent with them. there is nothing that i would trade when i am with them. i love you guys much !! =)

About a Girl

2009-02-27T13:10:00.003+08:00

this is a story about a girl
she was the blame for everything twirl
she was said to have a scandal
but the fact is that it was just a label

yes, she did ask for a break up
but that doesn't mean she has to fake out
how she feels or the way she felt
before and after she breaks and cracks

she was blame to have a guy
the reason for her to say goodbye
that was not the reason why
she cries her eyes out to the sky

one thing that she didn't understand
he once so hard to leave her hands
is now happy with someone else
trying to make her down and fell

is he acting or is it true ?
she asked herself everyday till noon
he text her and said i still love you
making her feel so sad and blue

he said that he is down and so do sad
with the break up that she has planned and made
but the way he acted doesn't show the bleed
as if the love already fade and dead

it's not a month yet
how could that be ?
so fast he changed
maybe that was the real he

she didn't regret the decision she made
it's just that she hope he would stop the play
trying to make her feel jealous and sway
instead she feels mad, furious and rage

created and written by ; saraosman

p/s ; if i am the one who is the playgirl, i should have texted or flirting with other guys. but the fact is that, it is you who did so. not even a day after we break up, u already texting and flirting with other girls. so much for "i love you so much and i can't forget you"

I Miss You

2009-02-26T15:33:00.002+08:00

i know that it's my fault this happen
and i also know that I'm the blame for all this

I'm not regretting this
it's just the fact that i miss you, us, we
it's the fact that i can't deny

i miss everything about this
i miss our time
i miss our memories
and i miss our laughter
i miss all the joy, the smile and the tears

i miss the time when we sat together at that little corner
starring into each others eyes
talking about how we truly feel
laughing at each others jokes
and feel as if the world is ours

i really, truly, deeply miss that moment

i am not regretting my decision
i just MISS everything about this

p/s ; i am sorry

BuatAndaBerdua

2009-02-24T15:04:00.002+08:00

buat anda si lelaki

knp kau begitu sadis ?
sedih aku tgk kau
kau kata kita dah takda pape
tetapi kau terus mencanang nama aku
knp perlu kau terus burukkan aku ?

oh, aku lupa
kau kan insan yang paling mulia di muka bumi ni
kau burukkan orang lain hanya kerana kau ingin kelihatan suci
sadis nya kau

kau jumpa betina itu depan aku,
hanya nak cemburukan aku ?
cetek nya pemikiran kau kalau kau rasa ia akan berjaya
kelakar lahh kau
sadis sekali jadi kau kan

buat anda perempuan

betina nya kau
kau fikir aku cemburu ?
kelakar lahh kalau kau fikir macam tuhh

kau kata kau takut aku sound kau ?
kalau kau takut, kenapa perlu kau jengukkan kepala kau ke luar ?
kenapa kau perlu menoleh ke arah aku untuk beberapa kali ?
kau sengaja mahu aku nampak kau bersama dia kan ?
aku pown peduli weyh.

kalau kau takut aku sound kau
knp perlu kau pandang-pandang aku ?
seoalah-olah kau tak puas hati dengan aku
kenapa kau perlu tunjuk-tunjuk aku depan kawan-kawan kau ?

kalau betul kau tak puas hati dengan aku
aku cabar kau wahai perempuan BODOH
datang jumpa aku depan-depan
aku nak tengok betapa berani nya kau

p/s; kehidupan korang berdua memang SADIS dan MENYEDIHKAN !

Updating

2009-02-20T14:10:00.002+08:00

i know it has been quite a long time that i don't write. just that there is nothing much to write about and im kinda busy lately.

last monday was the final for 4x400 m. and im the 2nd runner. i kinda passed out right after i arrived at the finish line. thank god i managed to finish the run. and i am really really glad that we as in my team and i got the 1st place. heee =)

owh, and right now im kinda busy with the debate preparation. it will be held on 25th feb. wish me luck keyh guys =)

School's Marathon

2009-02-14T19:36:00.003+08:00

today, my school held a marathon. it was divided into 4 category.

L1- guys under 18 (around 9 km)
L2- guys under 15 (around 7 km)
P1- girls under 18 (around 5 km)
P2- girls under 15 (around 5 km)

as you all know, i was in category P1. so i have to run about 5 km. it's not near you know.

that run was absolutely tiring. i was dehydrated by the time i arrived at the finish line. the teacher was shouting at me to run and cross the finish line before i passed out. and thank God i manage to cross it before i almost passed out.

i know i don't run that fast. but I'm really glad coz i got number 19. its quite good right ? haha ;)

now, my leg whole leg hurt. from my waist till my toe. it's really hard for me to climb the stairs, to sit and get up again and even move. i don't really know how am i gonna run 4x400 final this Monday.

wish me luck y'all =)

p/s; i am so tanned right now. haish =_="

A Reason To Smile :)

2009-02-12T19:56:00.003+08:00

Yeayy !! I've passed my law exam. i felt like i just won a lottery or something. HAHA ;) i really can't wait to get behind the wheels. weeee~

I'm really glad that i ace the exam for the first time. so i didn't have to repeat it again and again until i pass. thank you God ! *grinning*

and thank you to you cuzzie (aina) for being there with me. I'm glad that i took driving ed with you. if not, I'll be looking like an idiot. just sat there quietly alone.

thank you aina and oh, congrats for acing the exam too =)

p/s; i DON'T have any intention of bragging okeyh ______ ! ;)

Menjaja dan Meminta-minta

2009-02-06T23:30:00.003+08:00

hanya sebab kau punya wajah yang suci
kau boleh buat orang kasihan kan kau

tapi pernah tak kau terfikir
apa akan jadi kalau orang dapat tahu manipulasi yang kau cipta
yang kau reka hanya semata-mata
kerana mahukan perhatian

aku kasihankan orang macam kau
sumpah kasihan

kau boleh teruskan menjaja segala kisah
dan cerita tentang aku
cerita tentang kisah dahulu

aku sememangnya rela kau buat begitu
hanya supaya kau mendapatkan perhatian
yang selama ini kau cari dan kau pinta

kau juga boleh teruskan menjaja nama aku
dan segala-galanya yang buruk tentang diri aku
agar kau kelihatan baik, suci lagi murni

aku sememangnya telah dilahirkan
oleh Allah S.W.T di muka bumi ini
untuk menerima layanan yang sebegitu
daripada seorang yang amat sempurna seperti kau

kau juga tak perlu terus meminta-minta
perhatian daripada orang lain
dengan menjaja serta mencanang
segala kisah dan cerita perihal aku mahupun orang

kerana kau telah berjaya memperoleh
segala perhatian yang selama ini kau cari
sehingga ke lubang cacing sekalipun

jadi di sini
aku ingin mengucapkan jutaan terima kasih pada kau
kerana terus menjaja cerita perihal aku

dan di sini juga aku ingin mengucapkan tahniah
di atas pencapaian kau yang begitu cemerlang sekali
di dalam sketsa kehidupan ini

TAHNIAH buat kau !
=D

Ego

2009-02-04T21:09:00.006+08:00

everyone has an ego. but it varies in every person.

let me tell u a story. this happen this evening when i was walking home with my friend. it was raining at that time.

as we were heading home, suddenly my friend kinda slip a lil bit and his bicycle's handle kinda hit a car next to us. but it DIDN'T even leave a scratch.

then that car slows down, and the driver roll down the window and shout at us. "BODOH !"
i still remember your fugly face when you said it.

by that time i was like, wut the HELL ! u are driving a Toyota Camry for God's sake ! it's not like it is a Ferrari or a mini cooper or a Mercedes. it is just a TOYOTA CAMRY !

moreover, it didn't even leave a scratch !

just because you think that you are rich, u are that GREAT ! huhh. puh-liz ! you are so NOT !

yup ! we are an idiot. that is why we go to school and learn.

owh, and you know what uncle ! your wealthiness won't last long. GOD can take it away from you in just a blink of an eye. and if that happen, i will be the one who will laugh my lungs out !

you are not that rich yet. you are not the richest person in the world. but your attitude, you act as though you are so damn fucking rich. are rich people always that snobby ?

i bet your ego will go as high as the sky if you own so many expensive cars and tons of bungalows.

i advice you to go to your rich and intelligent world where people like you belong. you are too good to live in this world with us, ordinary human.

fyi, i am so DISGUST with your damn fucking smelly attitude. HAHA =D

Tagged by Diana ;)

2009-02-02T19:52:00.003+08:00

1. Anda rase anda HOT?
TAK LANGSUNG NOKTAH

2. Upload gambar kegemaran anda.

3. Kenapa anda suka gambar ini?
saya punye suka lahh ;)

4. Bila kali terakhir makan pizza?
28.1.2009 ;)

5. Lagu terakhir yang anda dengar?
fall for you.

6. Apa yang sedang anda buat selain dari buat tag ni?
messaging ;)

7. Selain nama anda sendiri, apakah lagi nama yang anda suka orang panggil anda?
err, akak kowt. (yg hanya di panggil oleh amie, duwe n adam ;] )

8. Tag lagi 5 orang:
1. aina
2.fahimi
3.fyna
4.teefa
5. sespew yg bce blog nie ;)

9. Siapa no 1?
cousin ;]

10. Siapakah orang nombor 2?
kawan baik saya. ;D

11. Orang nombor 3 ada hubungan dengan sesiapa?
dinosaur dia. (:

12. Bagaimana pulak dengan orang nombor 4?
she's single i think. =p

13. Kata sesuatu berkenaan dengan orang nombor 5.
tataw lahh dye sapew. haha =D

p/s; thnx fer d tagged adek diana ;) sorry if late reply.

People

2009-01-30T13:44:00.008+08:00

what can you really say about people. there are so many types of people in this world. actually, people are about the same. it's just their attitude and the way they see things are a little bit different from one another.

i have met these few types of people.

first;
an ordinary mother/father usually advice their children to learn how to clean up their mess by themselves so that they'll know how to survive in this tough world when they grow up. so that they'll learn how to be independent and more mature in making a wise decision. but what about a mother/father who always clean up their children mess ? when will the kids learn how to fix their own problems or clean up their own mess ?

second;
ones with oh I'm-so-perfect attitude. OMG ! when will a person like this learn that there are no one in this world that are perfect. eventhough you maybe have a so-called-a perfect body or so-called-a perfect face, you still don't have the right to act as if you're the best. all the attention has to go to you huhh. who the hell you think you are ?

third;
ones that think that they're so great. and they can do anything to others eventhough it is something bad. is it really okeyh for you to mock other people or just simply embarrassed them in front from others ? NO !! if you can treat people that way, why can't you be treated the same by others ? oh, i forgot. you're a princess right ? ;) people have to care about your feelings, but you don't.

fourth;
an actor/actress. who act as if they are an angel. as if they're innocent when people really know that they not. these actor/actress tend to cause a big mess/problems and act as if they're not guilty. they'll do anything to make others look bad as long as they'll look innocent. they might just delete/erase all the evidence, crying their eyes out so that people would be sympathy to them, or just simply act that they didn't know anything and act dumb. these kind of people should get an award for best actor/actress =)

fifth;
ones who think that they are a SOMEBODY. just because you think you are a SOMEBODY, that doesn't mean you have the right to do anything that you want. okeyh. maybe your parents have a so-called-perfect job, with high salary and all, that doesn't really mean you are a SOMEBODY. just because we are a nobody, that doesn't necessarily mean that everything we did is wrong. where is the justice then ?

p/s; i am so NOT dedicating this entry to anyone. if you think that I'm talking about you. think again. i didn't even mention your name right ? so, TAPAYAH nk perasan sgtt. you wanna copy my blog and send it to the school 'principal', go ahead. wanna lodge a police report, go on. coz i don't even mention YOUR name ! ;)

i know my English is not that good. for God's sake, I'm only 17. and I'm still learning English ! ;)

I'veBeenTagged

2009-01-29T22:01:00.002+08:00

1.What have you been doing recently?
my homework

2.Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
yup

3.What happened at 10am today?
still lying on my bed

4.When did you last cry?
just now

5.Believe in fate/destiny?
maybe.

6.What do you want in your life now?
a successful career and a success life

7.Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
both

8.What's your favourite thing to do on the bed?
curl up n hug my teddy ;)

9.What bottoms are you wearing now?
shorts

10.What's the nicest things in your inbox?
there are a lot that i kept

11.Do you tend to make the relationship complicated?
maybe

12.Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
no.

13.What was the last movie you caught?
Benjamin button. great movie ;)

14.What are you proud of?
my family, my friends ;)

15.What does the oldest text msg in your inbox say?
not gonna tell. haha =P

16.What was the last song you sang out loud?
Cela by Boneca

17.Do you have any nicknames?
yes.

18.What does the newest text say?
not gonna tell too =P

19.What time did you go to bed last night?
early. bout 9.30. haha

20.Are you currently happy?
yeah =)

21.Who gives you the best advise?
friends, on certain things.

22.Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
i don't eat whipped cream.

23.Who did you talk on the phone last night?
no one.

24.Is something bugging you now?
none that matters :)

25.Who was the last person to make you laugh?
my friends ;)

so i tagged all of you that have read my blog.

Sweet17 #2

2009-01-22T21:26:00.002+08:00

hey guys. I'm so damn sorry coz it takes me such a long time to update my blog.

9 Jan 09, my super bestfriend or should i call my gay partner, hanan izzati made a so called surprise party for me at school. but too bad sayangg. i kinda had it figured out. heee =p

btw, i really really appreciate your effort for planning this up for me. u even bake me a cake. thank you so much sayangg !! i love you lahh. we had loads of fun that day. I'll upload the pics later. okeyh ? =)

p/s; yasmin also gave me a huge cut of brownie which she bakes herself. and it is super delicious. thank you sayangg. owh. and she also light up a candle for me. thanx for the effort dear. weeee =D